my inner emotions...

problackass: bvsedjesus: This really happened Niggas

Tue, 18 Jun 2013 11:34:27 -0400

bvsedjesus:

This really happened

Niggas

sigh Feb 2011 the last picture taken before my miscarriage.....

Sun, 09 Jun 2013 19:53:22 -0400

*sigh* Feb 2011 the last picture taken before my miscarriage.. This was the day it became official, the doctors appointment that saved/changed my life. The day my pregnancy was confirmed. I was excited and scared, but looking at this now brings so much sorrow and sadness… So many “what ifs” run through my mind, but only God knows the answers.

I just need to vent..

Sun, 09 Jun 2013 19:35:17 -0400

I haven’t done this in a while, but sometime you just need to release…

I am beyond sick and tired of being mistreated by people. I go on day to day holding my mule, and all the while I’m getting used and disrespected. I’m soooo tired of just about EVERYONE and I feel like I can’t talk to anyone. The one person I can actually talk to couldn’t even begin to understand which sucks, but that’s life. Honestly I just need to relocate and get away from everyone; a fresh start will be the greatest thing right now.

What makes it worst is my birthday is literally in 48 hours and I don’t even care about it anymore… : /

Mutual agreement..

Tue, 04 Jun 2013 19:17:28 -0400

Aight it has been a while, so I have to update yall a little. First off let me say that my relationship with God has improved drastically. Now I know you’re thinking *you go to church every other day how could it possibly get any better?* Welp I’ll tell you how, I’m a minister in training now !!! Preaching is definitely in my blood, cause I come from a very long line of pastors, deacons, deaconess, and even a bishop (R.I.P. granddaddy bishop Joshua Edwards), but I was shocked to be called to the ministry. Welp when the Lord calls you have no choice, but to answer..

Anywho as far as a relationship title I am STILL very single, but I have a mutual agreement with someone. Someone I’m extremely close to actually; we’ve decided to date each other, only when the time is right. I guess I’m spoken for because it’ll definitely be a long term relationship we’re just allowing each other to get the “whoring” out of our system first lol.. anyway I’ll keep you posted on that

^___^

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Wed, 29 May 2013 21:59:53 -0400

If you’re ratchet and you know it clap your hands *clap...

Fri, 24 May 2013 17:21:14 -0400

If you’re ratchet and you know it clap your hands *clap clap* if you’re ratchet and you know it clap you hands *clap clap* if you’re ratchet and you know it, and you can help but show it if you’re ratchet and you know it clap your hands *clap clap* LMAOO

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Tue, 21 May 2013 09:30:41 -0400

Deadly kisses, dangerous mistress, my heart it broken so I break...

Fri, 26 Apr 2013 21:11:51 -0400

Deadly kisses, dangerous mistress, my heart it broken so I break all your dishes…

- SilentButDeadly

Blaaaaah

Thu, 18 Apr 2013 15:55:26 -0400

I've hit a new level of boredom.. someone talk to me

spiritgun: thatgirlmjxo: titytwochainz: simplyymisha: iaminkw...

Mon, 08 Apr 2013 15:10:49 -0400

spiritgun:

thatgirlmjxo:

titytwochainz:

simplyymisha:

iaminkwellj:

:O

When keeping it real goes wrong.

Should’ve kept those confessions to her damn self

Smh

I loooove this song

Wed, 20 Mar 2013 12:23:00 -0400

I loooove this song

"You were there all of the time, waiting patiently in line for me, when I didn’t know you were the..."

Mon, 18 Mar 2013 17:24:29 -0400

““You were there all of the time, waiting patiently in line for me, when I didn’t know you were the light, you never left me; so glad you kept me””

- Trin-i-tee 5:7

bbasedcakes: im done I’m weak LOL

Sat, 09 Mar 2013 21:32:19 -0500

bbasedcakes:

im done

I’m weak LOL

shitsnotokay: I LOVE That Movie ! My favorite part lol

Sat, 09 Mar 2013 21:25:05 -0500

shitsnotokay:

I LOVE That Movie !

My favorite part lol

blasianxbri: lmao. Chapelle Show

Sat, 09 Mar 2013 21:24:18 -0500

blasianxbri:

lmao. Chapelle Show

steviegenius: She does not age I looooove her !!

Sat, 09 Mar 2013 18:56:38 -0500

steviegenius:

She does not age

I looooove her !!

stacksfifthavenue: I’m fucking crying. Maaaaaaaaan !!!

Sat, 09 Mar 2013 18:47:14 -0500

stacksfifthavenue:

I’m fucking crying.

Maaaaaaaaan !!!

mume25: lady-polgara: When a bullet hits a wall … That is...

Sat, 09 Mar 2013 18:43:13 -0500

mume25:

lady-polgara:

When a bullet hits a wall

…

That is astounding. I legitimately watched it about fifteen times before reblogging it.

awesome

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Sat, 09 Mar 2013 18:40:56 -0500

I just need to release

Sat, 09 Mar 2013 18:19:23 -0500

*deep sigh*

Let me start by saying I am not nor have a ever been a man hating type female. I love guys no matter how messed up majority of you are…

Now that I have that out of the way I just feel the need to vent about how absolutely EMOTIONALLY DESTROYED I am ! I’ve dealt with abuse mentally, physically, emotionally and survived it. I’ve dealt with a miscarriage, major depression, suicidal thoughts and survived it. I’ve even dealt with settling for less than what I deserve and having my life threatened DAILY, but one thing I refuse to ever deal with again is being lied to..

You ever have so many guards up that you began to get comfortable alone? Ever felt comfort in just being happy with yourself? Ever vision yourself never getting married, having children, and being happy with that cat/puppy? Well I have and I was perfectly fine with how my lonely, uneventful, boring, CELIBATE, life was until this guy came. We weren’t a couple, but foolishly I slowly allow my guarded walls to come down. I then begin to show emotions that I never thought I would feel again, and from what I was told it was mutual….

My moma always told me “everything that glitters ain’t gold, and you can’t keep up a mask too long after Halloween”. I use to be so confused about that Halloween statement until I realized the front that was being tossed right in front of my very eyes (here we go again right?) WRONG ! I refuse to be lied to again, refuse to settle for second best, refuse to allow a man to emotionally leave me empty again, and I refuse to let down my guard…

I know it’s not fair to the next man to pay for what the ex man did, but I love too hard too fast to just open up to anyone again. I don’t think I can take another heart break, so goodbye LOVE we’ve had good times but unfortunately the bad times outweighed the good..

I’ll never say never but I doubt I will open my heart to another person again… *sighs and wipes tears* only God knows.. :’(

my inner emotions...

problackass: bvsedjesus: This really happened Niggas

*sigh* Feb 2011 the last picture taken before my miscarriage.....

I just need to vent..

Mutual agreement..

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If you’re ratchet and you know it clap your hands *clap...

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Deadly kisses, dangerous mistress, my heart it broken so I break...

Blaaaaah

spiritgun: thatgirlmjxo: titytwochainz: simplyymisha: iaminkw...

I loooove this song

"You were there all of the time, waiting patiently in line for me, when I didn’t know you were the..."

bbasedcakes: im done I’m weak LOL

shitsnotokay: I LOVE That Movie ! My favorite part lol

blasianxbri: lmao. Chapelle Show

steviegenius: She does not age I looooove her !!

stacksfifthavenue: I’m fucking crying. Maaaaaaaaan !!!

mume25: lady-polgara: When a bullet hits a wall … That is...

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I just need to release

sigh Feb 2011 the last picture taken before my miscarriage.....