This is me; no filter, lip gloss, or boosted self esteem.
I am her; every flaw, every fault, and all the hurt.
She could be; your wife, your life, maybe even your dream.
She could even blow your mind and be your sexual fantasy
But deep down could she really be? The mother of your children; the lady behind the scene?
The one that holds it all together with a plan A, B, and C? Of course she could because she is me : )
July - Drake ft. Jhene Aiko
This is the greatest song ever, but my worst fear..
My family is the absolute worst and I’m not even talking about their character, personality, attitude; but just the connection I have with them…
I’m the youngest of both sides (I mean a decade+ age difference), and because of this I don’t really talk to any of them. I use to be close to one of my sisters but lately things are different, I would say i don’t know why, but sadly I do. It irritates me that people act differently when they don’t need you anymore or once they don’t need that shoulder to lean on they act as if the shoulder never existed… Anywho I was never close to the others; why I have no clue, but that’s just life I guess.
I never got along with my mom so that’s just out of the question. Every conversation I attempt to have with her ends up a debate, because if you don’t agree with her then you’re wrong. I mean how DARE you try to have an opinion of your own *gasp* smmfh.. My daddy is a whole different situation. Like any other father he’s there if I need him, but like any other man he just won’t understand *le sigh* so I can’t really talk to him the way I desire to.
I honestly feel that blood doesn’t make you family, but loyalty does. I say this because I’m closer to the few people I call my friends than I am to my so called “family”. They know more about me, they understand me, they don’t judge me or my logic, and even though we many not always agree that doesn’t hinder our friendship… That there is what I consider a “family” people you can talk to without being looked down on, someone who’s there to support you and your stupid decisions even when they tried to warn you… So I’ve said all of that to say this the quote “family first” all depends on who you consider “family” because blood is thicker than water, but they’ll be the first to turn their backs on you..
*just something to contemplate on*